Sunday, January 19, 2014

"Trust Yourself" by Blue Rodeo

I first heard this song in a funny way, I was in an airplane flying home, somewhere over the Midwest.  I had my Walkman with me and normally listened to cassettes on it.  For some reason I was messing around with the built-in radio and picked up a station that was playing this song.  I really liked it and was worried that I would be out of range before I could find out what it was.  But fortunately, they announced the artist and title just before I lost the signal.

YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xE8d-SIIDK4

What made me think of this song was that I was thinking this morning how one of the evil things about MS is that it makes one not be able to trust themselves.

For sometime I have thought how I can't trust my hands, I will think I am carrying something in my hand (glasses, keys, gloves, etc.) and when I go to use whatever it is discover my hand is empty.  And the inverse is true as well: I can pick up something, and later discover that I have stuff in my hand that I had no idea I was carrying.  For example, I thought I pulled an audio cable out of a box and discover I was also carrying an extension cord and headphones.

My memory has been flaky for sometime, but has gotten extremely so lately.  I can't remember things for even a few seconds.  If I think of two things at once, by the time I get a pencil and paper to write them down I almost never remember them both, sometimes I can't remember either.